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It’s been a long week.
I’ve had eleven hours of sleep between Friday and this very moment. I don’t know why I’m not asleep. Film fest was a ton of fun. Banquet was miserable, but let’s get real, when is it not? Banquet should just be called “Cry endlessly for several hours and eat a shit ton together and reminisce that way you can cry even more with a few short breaks for peeing and laughing between all the speeches and more crying theatre party.” I had to come to terms with one of my best friends graduating at this banquet, that was much more difficult than I had imagined. To say that I “cried” over him would be a complete and utter miss, I heaved, coughed, collapsed, and sobbed over this poor son of a bitch. It was unattractive. I lost a director. I came to terms with my future speech never really being as good everyone else’s, at least at this point. I just wanted to die from the love and sadness that oozed out of our home, the auditorium.
I was physically incapable of walking in a straight line when I got home, and my eyes were like two plums that had been forced into my eye sockets. It hurt. Luckily, I’m loved and was surprised. It was one of the most thoughtful things someone has done for me. I went to bed feeling better than before.
And now I’m just coming to terms with going into the Wild- senior year.
I hope I don’t die.
Before that happens though, I need to get my shit together. And hopefully soak everyone up before it’s too late.
forwardtothepresent asked: Ana, I would just like to say how much I love you. You are beautiful, wonderful, and amazing :) and one of my favorite people. I love how we can have mental conversations about the ignorant, narrow-minded, asshole, full of shit pricks in our history class. You make my day :)
This is one of the best compliments I’ve received. I love you too, Merritt. You are truly stunning.
I’m dying.
Fall Out Boy pick up line:
- The song titles aren’t the only thing that’s long
(via octupado)
Changes
So today I’m moving out of my nana and papa’s house. I knew this day was coming. I’m really sort of sad about the whole thing. My mom is all smiles because she’s finally back on her feet, and I love it when my mom smiles. We’re only moving about two seconds away, shouldn’t I be thrilled? I guess when you settle into the idea of living with so many people the idea of leaving them sucks that much more. But I know itll serve its purpose. It’s a good transition from here to college probably. It shouldn’t matter to me, I leave in a little over a year from now. I’ll just have to look at it as a reason to redecorate my room.
As for everything else- its just complicated. All over the place it is really complicated. I don’t know what to do with you. Self conflicting actions make for deep thought but I guess it’s kind of cool that I’ve been exuberant lately. Radiant, actually. I just don’t want to make everything come at once though, mainly for my own sanity. I can only handle so much change before I believe it possible for me to spontaneously combust. And with all this going on it seems pretty damn likely.
A day with my period.
- period: WAKE UP ASSHOLE, YOU GOT CRAMPS.
- period: How bout an entire chocolate cake for breakfast?
- period: How's that back pain? Feeling better? Let's fix that.
- period: Corneas glance by a VS magazine on the table. Instantly horny.
- period: Find a cookie as big as a house and eat it.
- period: Where's your Tic Tac box filled with ibuprofen?
- period: Got things to do? Don't care. Sleep.
- period: See a female specimen of any kind. Instantly horny.
- period: For dinner you're eating an entire bag of Reese's buttercups.
- period: Breeze blows by. Instantly horny.
- period: You didn't like those brand new underwear right?
- period: Yell at a puppy.
- period: Close eyes and wait for repeat tomorrow.
- Breeze blows by. omg.
Super nerd
I need a five on that ap test. Otherwise my head might explode.
